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(eye contact) [03 Nov 2004|10:01pm] the cover i judged says to me today, "wait, what do you mean? you go to uw?" perhaps we are both guilty?

(2 fake smiles | eye contact) never judge a necklace by its puca shells. [28 Sep 2004|11:19pm] I had a strong lesson in misjudgment the other day. There was a boy who had common sense and was generally likable, but was rather insensitive sometimes and, well, a bit meatheadish. So when he got his friend from high school a job, I figured I was getting more of the same. When I heard the friend went to USC for a year and was now back, & that he had wrestled his whole life, the image of the party-boy complemented his A&F and strong jaw quite well. A flunker I thought for sure. Well, turns out, he received a $36,000 academic scholarship from USC because of his math skills and overall scholastic success, he's taking this year off because he cannot afford the other $6,000 for school because his parents cannot help him, so he needs to work close to 60 hours a week to save the money in order to go back next year. He went to Nationals for math club related activities. As my eyebrows were raised, he said, "Didn't peg me for a smart kid, huh?" The fact that he proved my preconceptions wrong makes me like him that much more.

(4 fake smiles | eye contact) [27 Jul 2004|11:30pm] the thing is, betrayal is a moment. indifference is a condition. you see?

(eye contact) how can they be so fucking cool? [17 Jul 2004|11:09pm] there is a limit to all of this shit. i dont know what it is, but im pretty sure im approaching it. youknowwhatimsaying. "as young as i was, i felt older back then. the more i learn, the more i cant understand. and ive become content with this life that i lead, where i drink too much and dont believe in much of anything. and i lie to myself. and say, 'its for the best.'"

(eye contact) [14 Jun 2004|02:51am] [ music | torres. ] "your silhouette's my favorite, im not letting go of it."

(3 fake smiles | eye contact) [26 Oct 2003|01:14pm] ( i want my back to be scarred by these words. )

(1 fake smile | eye contact) "my only hope is letting you go." [18 Oct 2003|09:42pm] "ohhh look at me. i say 'i hate myself' so girls will like me."

(6 fake smiles | eye contact) so here i am again. [18 Jun 2003|01:07am] and this is where i will make anew. can you keep a secret? i dont need the attention. im sorry, i need a place to be the other half of me. i needed this to start over, even if starting over is impossible. please dont be offended understand .

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