so they tell me this is life

softlybittenlip @ 2004-11-03T22:01:00

2004-11-04T06:04:03Z

the cover i judged says to me today, "wait, what do you mean? you go to uw?"

perhaps we are both guilty?

never judge a necklace by its puca shells.

2004-09-29T06:22:13Z

I had a strong lesson in misjudgment the other day. There was a boy who had common sense and was generally likable, but was rather insensitive sometimes and, well, a bit meatheadish. So when he got his friend from high school a job, I figured I was getting more of the same. When I heard the friend went to USC for a year and was now back, & that he had wrestled his whole life, the image of the party-boy complemented his A&F and strong jaw quite well. A flunker I thought for sure. Well, turns out, he received a $36,000 academic scholarship from USC because of his math skills and overall scholastic success, he's taking this year off because he cannot afford the other $6,000 for school because his parents cannot help him, so he needs to work close to 60 hours a week to save the money in order to go back next year. He went to Nationals for math club related activities. As my eyebrows were raised, he said, "Didn't peg me for a smart kid, huh?" The fact that he proved my preconceptions wrong makes me like him that much more.

softlybittenlip @ 2004-07-27T23:30:00

2004-07-28T06:32:55Z

the thing is,

betrayal is a moment.

indifference is a condition.

you see?

how can they be so fucking cool?

2004-07-18T06:12:00Z

there is a limit to all of this shit.

i dont know what it is,

but im pretty sure im approaching it. youknowwhatimsaying.

"as young as i was, i felt older back then.
the more i learn, the more i cant understand.
and ive become content with this life that i lead,
where i drink too much and dont believe in much of anything.
and i lie to myself. and say, 'its for the best.'"

softlybittenlip @ 2004-06-14T02:51:00

2004-06-14T09:54:07Z

"your silhouette's my favorite,

im not letting go of it."

softlybittenlip @ 2003-10-26T13:14:00

2003-10-26T21:13:26Z

So live your life that the fear of death can never enter your heart.
Trouble no one about their religion; respect others in their view, and demand that they respect yours.
Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life.
Seek to make your life long and its purpose in the service of your people.
Prepare a noble death song for the day when you go over the great divide.
Always give a word or a sign of salute when meeting or passing a friend, even a stranger, when in a lonely place.
Show respect to all people and grovel to none.
When you arise in the morning give thanks for the food and for the joy of living.
If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself.
Abuse no one and no thing, for abuse turns the wise ones to fools and robs the spirit of its vision.
When it comes your time to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with the fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way.
Sing your death song and die like a hero going home.</i>

Chief Tecumseh

"my only hope is letting you go."

2003-10-19T04:41:48Z

"ohhh look at me.

i say 'i hate myself'

so girls will like me."

so here i am again.

2003-06-18T08:03:53Z

and this is where i will make anew.
can you keep a secret? i dont need the attention.
im sorry, i need a place to be the other half of me.

i needed this to start over, even if starting over is impossible.
please ~~dont be offended~~ understand .